I woke up with a headache yesterday and proceeded to have it on and off all day. It was supposed to be a gym day but I missed it since my car has something noisy going on with the axle. (I took it in to the shop today.) I also was unsure whether I would have to travel to Spokane to pick up a friend. (He found another ride luckily.)
So by the end of the day I needed some kind of release and started sifting through my music. Opera. I don’t know why listening to La Boheme helps me to relax but it does. And La Boheme it had to be as I had watched Moonstruck earlier in the day.
Then it was time for a good cry so I searched for all the Last Night of the Proms clips I could find on YouTube. Memories of mom. I wonder what she thought of her life near the end? I bet she only thought about being with Frank again. When I last saw her I knew she was tired and wouldn’t stay around very long. She was so negative about everything when I spent those few weeks with her. Was she always like that? Am I always like that?
That’s what it feels like lately. I am busy all day, and then it comes to 8pm and I look back and say what the hell did I do all day? Why haven’t my emails been answered? Why haven’t I gotten the basic website up for that client?
I just don’t see what the point is anymore. I try to run a business and all I seem to do is get crap from my clients.
I am old. I am tired. I try to do the best I can but it just isn’t good enough anymore. Fuck it.
Watching, listening to this on TV while I blog. Yes.
Digital Nation
I’m looking out the window at grey.
I can’t seem to get focused on anything lately. I have lots of work piling up doing marketing for a website. I have my own Print-On-Demand stuff to set up. I have genealogy leads to follow up on.
None of it is getting done as I would rather sit and play in Second Life or solve crossword puzzles.
I’ve been working with a certain client for a few years now, doing various websites and other tasks such as project coordination. About 18 months ago this client wanted to get some software developed which would be run from a website (cloud computing). But no, they didn’t come to me to ask what I thought of the company that they chose.
If they had I would have asked them about the following:
- show me some other software they have developed (I can find nothing online that they have ever done and can find nothing about the owner of the company)
- what coding language will it use? (seems it has now been done in ASP and will only run on a Windows server, which involves more expense than a Linux server running PHP)
It has taken me weeks to decide which CMS to use on this website, but I finally settled back on WP, because I almost know what I am doing with it.